Welcome back, dear readers.
I feel like I’m in a stalemate these days. I have so much that I have to accomplish in the next two months that I’m…well, frankly, terrified.
Dragonfly Summer needs a major rewrite, or at least the first one hundred and fifty pages do. The edited manuscript has to be in my editor’s hands at the end of October (in this case, my editor is one of my beta readers, not an editor at a publishing house). I’m thrilled that he agreed to look at the manuscript, and as he’s a very busy man, there’s no way I’m going to risk losing this opportunity by handing the book in late.
Another novel, Lost, has to be on its way to a contest judge by the end of November. It, too, needs a polish, but probably just a quick copy edit. Well, as “quick” as anyone can edit over 350 pages.
In other writing news, eleven freelance journalism articles need to be finished in the next three weeks.
Several projects at work are due at the end of November.
My red prajoud test for kickboxing is on December 17th, and I’m nowhere near ready. I need to work on my running speed, double kicks, push-outs, and push-ups. Argh.
I feel like a deer in the headlights right now. Part of the reason for this may be that I was sick last week, all weekend, and still not 100% today. I see all these deadlines coming at me like a freight train, and how am I feeling? Unmotivated. Definitely uninspired. I’m terrified that train is going to run me over.
Have you ever felt like this? How do you break yourself out of a rut and get moving when faced with the seemingly impossible?
My greatest fear is that not writing can quickly become a bad habit. I didn’t write anything new for years before beginning this blog and finishing Dragonfly Summer. I don’t want it to happen again, but I’ve been highly unproductive since the retreat. Not to mention that I’m still suffering from end-of-retreat hangover.
Any advice for me? Help!