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Misery Loves Company

I almost shouldn’t post today. I wanted this blog to be a consistently cheerful, positive place about following your dreams and living a life full of adventure and excitement. But maybe that’s not realistic. Sometimes life is hard. Even when you consistently try your best, sometimes you get kicked in the teeth and want nothing better than to crawl back into bed.

I know I shouldn’t complain. I have a job that pays decently, where I occasionally get to do creative things. For the most part, I work with amazing, supportive people. I have a dream and am working towards it, even though it feels like the littlest of baby steps right now. I’d love to find my way into The Zone again, where the words fly off my fingertips and I’m thoroughly entranced with the world I’m creating, line by line. But so far, it’s not happening. I have a good relationship, a warm home, two friendly cats, fine friends, and my health, for the most part. But still….

Self-sabotage is the name of the game. Things started to go downhill last night with my evening run. I set the treadmill levels at eight, and it was too much. Even worse, I didn’t have the fortitude to push through it and keep on going. I just quit. I could have really used Jillian Michaels screaming in my face at that point. The pad work didn’t go as well, either. The Boy wasn’t really in the mood, and we were both in kind of a weird place. Maybe it’s the weather. It’s been raining non-stop here for about three days, and it’s cold. Then my favorite contestant got sent home from The Biggest Loser ranch. I knew he wasn’t going to win, but it seems unfair to send him home because he lost weight too well.

Feeling depressed, bruised, and battered, I stayed up past midnight, and am paying for it today. I didn’t get up to write (surprise, surprise), so I’ll have to do my pages this evening, along with whatever workout I can manage, because I’m getting pretty sore. My cardio was better for the pads yesterday, but definitely not for the run. Can’t imagine being able to run 5K by the 16th and not embarrass myself, but we’re registered for the event so there’s no turning back.

These are the days when it seems like nothing will ever change; I will forever be stuck at a desk all day doing menial tasks, feeling like no one cares whether I’m here or not. Since this is a particularly dreary day, I thought it might be a good idea to share a few of my favorite things.

  • Cuddling with my cats on a rainy day
  • Bear hugs
  • Fresh cherries, crisp and sweet
  • Walking in the ocean with the feel of soft sand beneath my feet and waves crashing against my legs
  • A warm bath and a good book
  • Thunderstorms (if I’m indoors)
  • New magazines
  • Slow dancing to a song that is both unbearably beautiful and sad
  • Sushi
  • Melted sharp cheddar on crackers
  • Toasting anything over a campfire

If anyone is actually reading this, and I’m not really sure anyone is, feel free to share your favorite things. I’d love to hear about them.

To bed at: 12:30
Awake at: 8:30
Novel pages written: 0
Exercise: 0

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  1. Kim

    This is nasty weather. The blah’s are normal.

    My favorite things:

    1. a long bike ride
    2. a run that doesn’t hurt
    3. writing a good sentence
    4. a good laugh.
    5. Pizza
    6. Good conversation that you never want to end.

    There are others but that is good enough. Happy writing this evening. Do it. Excericse but slow the treadmill setting down big time and run at a pace you can sing at. Finish the run wanting to run more. Long and slow is always good.

  2. Story Teller

    Hi Kim,

    I sure wish I’d read this earlier! I took last night off from both writing and exercising. I really felt I needed the evening off. May have not been the greatest plan, goal-wise, but I feel better today.

  3. Kim

    Well if it makes you feel better I took the night off too and wrote my own blog post…. lol.. no exercise. Then I chose sleep over the early morning bike ride. But I’m still recovering from my half marathon and prepping for the 200km planned for this Saturday. So are my excuses.

  4. Story Teller

    I do feel a little better, Kim. I’m certainly not going to punish my body by overexercising before starting Jillian’s plan on Monday, but I really need to start writing more.

    200k? And I’m worried about 5! You ROCK, Kim! 🙂 Thanks for all your comments and support. Starting a blog can be a bit lonely.

  5. Elspeth Cross

    Everybody has those days. The trick is to make it through to tomorrow.

    My favourite things:
    1. When the radio plays three of my favourite songs in a row.
    2. Getting a chatty letter from a friend for no particular reason.
    3. A plate of snack food, my comfy comforter, the corner of the sofa and a book when all the lights are on.
    4. Days where you wake up and feel skinny.

  6. Story Teller

    That’s a great list, Elspeth! I love the last two, especially. What’s your snack food of choice?

  7. Elspeth Cross

    My mom calls it a junk plate. Cheese and crackers of any variety, an apple (cored and peeled and cut into wedges), maybe a couple slices of coldcuts. And a cookie.

    Thanks. Now I want one. 🙂

  8. Story Teller

    “Junk” plate? That doesn’t sound like junk food at all. It sounds really good. Won’t be having much of that for the next thirty days myself, thanks to Jillian. Have one on me! 🙂


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