Happy Friday, Dear Readers!
I’ve almost survived my first week of hardcore training…only two more classes to go, and I’m actually looking forward to them. Tomorrow morning I have a meeting with personal trainer extraordinaire Helene Massicotte before my boxing class. I’ll let you know how that goes.
Today’s topic is a little more serious than usual, because I’ve been in a serious mood all week. What would you change about yourself if you could? It’s great to be happy with who you are, but I know lots of us also strive for self-improvement. So be honest–if you could change anything, what would it be? Can you change it? If so, how, and are you already on your way?
I’m sure this won’t come as a surprise to anyone who has read this blog this week, but I wish I had more confidence. I can blame my lack of confidence on a lot of things–I wasn’t exactly raised in a “love thyself” kind of family, to put it mildly. A string of abusive boyfriends followed, and I’ve always taken any criticism to heart, whether or not it was warranted. But that was then, this is now. I don’t want to spend my entire life limited by my childhood or anything traumatic that happened in my past.
There’s quite a few things I don’t like about myself, and they’re mostly related to confidence. I can be too sensitive and highly defensive–both of these qualities would dissipate if I was a more confident person. Thankfully, the process I am currently going through in kickboxing–training for the green prajioud and to fight in the ring at last–will help me immensely in this quest. I know I am going to take some very hard knocks along the way (both physically and mentally). There will be times when I doubt myself and get depressed over my lack of ability. (I’ve already had a mini-meltdown, and it’s only the first week!) But you can’t fight without confidence–it seriously isn’t possible.
As my kru told me yesterday, “the moment you start thinking negative, you’ve already lost”.
Sure, the full-body makeover will be a nice bonus, but what I’m most looking forward to out of all this is the makeover of my mind.
How about you, Dear Readers? I suspect this won’t be a popular post for comments, but I hope some of you are brave enough to share.