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It may seem strange to feel grateful for the people who punish you–who hit you, yell at you, and constantly correct you. Yet gratitude is exactly what I feel.

Fighters are well versed in the concept of paying it forward. Someone helps you train for your fight, so you then turn around and help someone else when it’s their time. When you’re the beneficiary of all this goodwill and support, it’s a heady experience. It’s easy to get angry in the heat of the moment, when it seems like nothing you do will ever be good enough and you’re getting hit again and again. But if you let your anger get the best of you, you will miss the point: these people are doing this because they care. They’re spending their time and energy making sure that the pain you’re suffering now will mean less pain in the ring.

Every day of training is a battle against my own mind. My body is so much stronger than my mind will ever be. It’s my mind that tells me I can’t do something, that I’m not strong enough, that I’ll never be good enough for this, that I don’t belong here. My hope is that as my body keeps proving my mind wrong, that little negative voice will shut the hell up.

One saying I have always loved and strongly believe in is this: Whether you think you can do something or not, you’re right.

The next time you’re sure something is beyond your reach, go for it. Try to achieve that goal that seems just slightly beyond your grasp. I bet you’ll surprise yourself with what you can do. There are no limits, except the ones we set for ourselves.

That much I know is true.

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  1. Mark

    Well said, Holli. I would like to share your post with Thia, who just started taking Muay Thai lessons. Thia is my g/f Lisa’s daughter, and she is really enjoying Muay Thai. She spent the past few years in gymnastics, so we are glad that she has chosen this active sport.

  2. Story Teller

    Thanks, Mark. You are more than welcome to share my post, and if she likes it, she can find tons of info and inspiration about muay thai on this blog.

    There’s certainly days where the training is frustrating as hell, but it’s also one of the most rewarding things I’ve ever done. The good outweighs the bad, by far.

    Gymnastics training will be a HUGE advantage to her in this sport. Some of the best fighters I know were gymnasts first.

  3. V Y-C

    I’m really enjoying your posts. The mental aspect of any training is the biggest part of anything. Thank you for continuing to post.

  4. Story Teller

    Thanks, Vanessa. I appreciate the comment. It’s getting much more difficult to blog about fight camp, as there is so much I can’t reveal about our training and my game plan.

    I guess that old adage “the first rule of fight club is that you can’t talk about fight club” is actually true.


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